Friday, December 16, 2011

In which i confess

I think I’ve learned something very important this school semester. Something that I never would have thought I would take away from the hours and hours of chemistry and composition. In fact, it’s a lesson I didn’t even realize I needed to learn.
What is it you ask?
Well, to put it quite simply, a lesson in contentment.
You see, I’ve always loved to be busy, even as an infant. I’ve been told that as a toddler, as soon as I got up in the morning I’d go to my mother and say “Mommy, where are we going today?” In my eyes, there was always somewhere more exciting to be. Staying at home you say? Please.  I had places to go, things to see, and people to meet!
Looking at the calendar earlier this week, I seriously almost panicked. I mean, there are so many empty days over Christmas break. To a girl who is used to being gone all day almost everyday, that prospect is pretty daunting.
Surprisingly though, I’ve enjoyed the past two days of break. Sure, I’ve had a couple of moments when I’ve felt like my sibilings are going to send me to a mental hospital, but other than that, I’ve pretty much enjoyed it.
My point is that I’m learning to be content with my situation, if that makes sense. To enjoy and be satisfied with the simple things in life; to be fulfilled with the life God gave me. Now I’m not saying that I want to be an old maid and own 62 cats, but I’m also saying that perhaps it isn’t such a bad thing to have a few ‘off days’.
Don’t get me wrong, I’m still struggling with feeling like I’m stuck at home with nothing to do. I’m trying to enjoy my time of peace, while reminding myself that I won’t be completely un-busy. After all, there are still graduations and parties to attend, movies to watch, and books to read… Not to mention the small matter of Christmas. :) (And no chemistry for two whole weeks! Whoop whoop!)
So, does anyone else struggle with this, or am I the only one?
~ Abby
p.s. I’m in desperate need of some new books to read… Any suggestions would be much appreciated. :)


Katie said...

I can totally relate! I feel the same way sometimes. But yet, I always have a special love for home, the peaceful fields behind my house, and the quiet that always finds its way to my ears. (:

jana said...

I feel the same way! and I'm supposed to be he crazy cat lady;)