Tuesday, April 10, 2012

rough days

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Ugh. I seriously told myself that I would never do this, that I would never really talk about my private feelings on this blog. This has been my happy place, my little spot on the internet where I can focus on the brighter side of life. I'm not saying that I'm not optimistic in real life, I really am. But writing on here sometimes refocuses things for me, and cheers me up if I'm having a rough day.

Honestly though, I don't feel like writing like I normally do. I've had an extremely hard week, like one I've never had before. I'm not going to go into any detail, but let's just say that it's been a rather long series of unfortunate events. {And on a side note, did anyone ever read those books as a kid? Lemony Snicket reference for the win!}

I feel empty, defeated. Fake too. Fake because I put on a smile, and tell everyone - even my family - that I'm just fine. I've never been one to cry or truly break down; I can count on one hand the total amount of times I have seriously cried in front of people. And I hate that. I hate that it's difficult for me to share my feelings.

But I'm going to change that, or at least try to. I want to be more open and honest. And quite frankly, I'm tired of being the strong one, the example. It's wearing me out.

So here's to new beginnings. But please, can I just sleep for a week first?

~ Abby

p.s. This post is rather depressing, I know. But never fear, I have a few posts scheduled to go up throughout this week. I think I need to take a break from writing for a bit.



8 comments:

Madeline Elizabeth said...

I'm really sorry you are having a terrible week. I understand what you mean by not sharing your feelings. I will be praying for you this week! :) It will get better!

Maddy

Abby said...

Thank you Maddy, that means a lot. :)

Kenneth Lindsey said...

I've had a similar week so i totally get this. It's nice to know that Jesus had rough days and weeks,so He understands:) "For we do not have a great high priest Who is unable to sympathize with our weakness but one who in every respect has been tempted as we are,yet without sin. Let us then with confidence draw near to the throne of grace,that we may recieve mercy and find grace to help in time of need."-Hebrews 4:15-16. Praying for you sis:)

Abby said...

Thank you Ken... I needed to hear that. :)

Kenneth Lindsey said...

anytime:)

Kelsie said...

I'm so sorry you are having a rough week, I understand and hope it gets better for you! I'm a new follower!
lovely blog!

~Kelsie
http://december23rd-kelsie.blogspot.com/

Jordan E. said...

Posting your true feelings out in the open shows that you are human, and have bad days just like anyone else! I think that's what would make a blog unique. xo <3

Leah E. said...

I'm sorry about your bad week. :( But this is a very good post. Because the truth is, life isn't always happy. We're going to have those rough days and weeks!- I know I do! Just remember, everything that happens, God makes happen for a reason!

<3