Monday, November 11, 2013

of ruts, black eyes, and my quarter life existential crisis

yeah, that's me on the left. apparently elbows and eyes do not mix well in the game of soccer.

I haven't felt up to blogging. Honestly, I've felt like my life has been pretty boring lately. Also, I only felt like talking about frogs. And I'm not sure that many people actually like reading about frogs. Poor frogs.

from a play [young frankenstein]  i danced in. apparently my face has had a thing for being discolored lately.

Basically, I've been caught in a rut. I've been struggling with complacency, both in my personal and spiritual lives, respectively -- and that's not cool. I kind of feel like I have plateaued, and that I am stagnant in a very dull, very in between stage of my life. I know that's not the truth, it's just how I feel.

But I realized tonight that life lately has been anything but boring. My last high school soccer season just ended. I just recently sent in my last college application. Last week I was cast as Belle in a ballet adaption of Beauty and the Beast. Life is actually pretty good.

However, I can't help but feel that the end of an era is drawing near -- at least for me, of course. This time next year I will have moved -- possibly to a different state -- and be in the process of settling into a whole new environment. I will not be seeing my high school friends very often. I will not be attending the same church. I will not be holding the same job.

Those prospects are both exhilarating and terrifying.

a few of my photogenic siblings and I.

From here on out, I am going to be more thankful for where I am. I'm going to do my best to cherish what little time I have left here at home, and I'll be trying not to rush things. I am most definitely not going to let myself be lulled, yet again, into ungratefulness. 

But it is such an easy trap to fall into.

~ Abby


Madeline Elizabeth said...

I'm so glad you posted, and in such an honest way!

Katie Elizabeth Hawkes said...

I think they should definitely make up plot twist in that ballet so it involves your black eye :) Can totally relate to all your feelings, btw. All the upcoming changes...I have been there so, so many times. It's terrifying and thrilling all at once!

Leah E. said...

Hey, you finally blogged. Haha. This post was awesome. Frogs are great too. Hehe. Oh, and you're like the perfect Belle. :)

Jordan Eaks said...

I agree with Maddy, very honest post! I agree with all these things. But knowing we can rest and trust in God conquers any fears and thoughts we may have! Love you!

Simply_Katie said...

<3 <3 <3